talkin to myself

i got to change something important on my mind.
ive been facing myself and asking things i wanna know.
but now, after all ive gotten nothing.
according to my thinking, sense of insecurity and sadness from somewhere else,
i can feel as if i shrink before my life.
boy, i didnt know that its this hard to spend time with something and solve those.
i am small now.
honestly, seriously, i dont wanna be like that at all!
so then, how can i make up my mind? how can i behave appropriately as a person? what is right? what is bad?
i think all of those answers r in my hand. but just im not mature enough to perform them.
i wanna be able to make it, but tired...
is this an excuse not to get any hurts?
give me a break:(
give me power to carry on! lol